Still Trying to Face Reality

Dear Blog Friends (if there are any of you left),

My life has been crazy...CRAZY I tell you. 

I thought way back when I started this blog that I would go on a diet and get skinny and everything would be great. Right? Wrong. Turns out that the Reality is that I have failed miserably at all the diets I've attempted including the ones I've attempted on this blog. There was one diet where I actually changed my life and eating habits for a while (like 2 years) but I still had the thought in the back of my mind, "Once I'm (insert: Married, have babies, land this great job etc, etc, etc, dot, dot, dot) I won't have to eat so healthy and I can relax a little." I still thought of it as a diet, not a lifestyle.

The truth is, this is going to be a life long struggle for yours truly. I will never be able to "relax." I look at my family history and my elderly relatives and even my not so elderly relatives and I see that I have to be on it like glue and not veer from it...ever. They have so many health problems because they were never taught how to eat correctly or fed into the diet crazes of their time.  My dear, sweet husband sees the value of good healthy nutrition, but gets cranky if he doesn't get pizza, a burger or cookies every once in a while and when we were first dating and married he said I was a party pooper if I didn't join him in eating like that, so of course I joined him, but that wasn't his fault, it was mine. The fact is, I don't have anyone to blame but myself, because I make my eating choices.

So what do I do? 

I've been thinking a lot about the Word of Wisdom lately and how so many of us members of the LDS Church have had this health code at our fingertips for more than a century but still don't follow it.  Sure we don't drink coffee, tea, alcohol, do drugs etc, but we also don't follow the part about eating herbs, fruits, vegetables, meat sparingly, and all grain being the "staff of life." We don't add these things into our diet and have joined the rest of the country in eating the chemically processed foods that we are conditioned to love.  I'm coming to realize that sugar is my heroin and that even though I do eat a diet that includes fruits and vegetables, it's not nearly enough.  When I'm busy and overstressed (which, believe me, I have been) and life gets too much to handle, I go to my 1st love which is sugar and carbs. 

I need to figure this out, because I see how my life could be if I don't, and it really isn't what I want.

Here are some links to things that have inspired me lately:

http://www.hungryforchange.tv/

http://shine.yahoo.com/healthy-living/losing-180-pounds-really-does-body-8212-160-163900419.html

Love,
Em-Cat