Note to Self...

Don't ever weigh yourself the day before your period...period, no exceptions! You'll just look at the scale and say, "SIX POUNDS! HOW IN THE @&$!#%^*#+=£€¥!?);@- DID I GAIN SIX POUNDS? NOTHING I'M DOING IS WORKING I THINK I NEED TO GO EAT SOME CHOCOLATE CAKE!" but then I'll calm down and not really eat the chocolate cake because it would just make me feel worse about myself, so instead I'll choose some celery or something similarly annoying. And then the next day I'll start my period and realize that I'm just the queen of water-weight gain when hormones take control of my body.

*sigh*

Sometimes I just hate how my body is. I often find myself daydreaming about having long beautiful supermodel legs and a tiny waist with no stretch marks in sight, the double chin non-existent and the fat/bulky arms replaced with thin muscular beauties. Then I realize that isn't my reality. I need to change the things I have control over, (like the bulky arms and double chin) and get over the fact that my legs will never be long and though I can work on my stomach, it probably won't get to be the size of a supermodel. And the stretch marks? Well, they don't seem to be going anywhere.  I'm going to just have to remind myself of how great my two boys are and that I'd get them again and again if that meant having my little men in my life.

Even though I shouldn't compare myself to Hollywood Stars, I still have a few I would love to look like.  Here they are in no particular order:

I probably would look like that too if I had make-up artists, air brushing and plastic surgery at my fingertips. But it's nice to dream - right?